2009 BRING IT ON/ The Change Begins With Me!

2009 so far has been alot of fun! Being 21, has been ALOT of fun! I've been focusing more of my time trying to be happy, rather than sad. I've been too busy moping around feeling sorry for myself, WELL... I'm done with that! No more Sad Em! I'm bringing Happy Go Lucky Em back, whether you like it or not!!!

Some things I am going to try to change, no resolutions just things that I could change and probably should but I won't be hard on myself if I don't change 100%.

1. SMILE MORE! LAUGH AT THE TRIALS! That's a big one! Most people can't laugh at the bad things that happen to them, I'm going to try to have a more positive outlook on trials. Try not to always ask "WHY is this happening to me?" buY "HOW can I become better because of this trial?"

2. GO TO THE LORD FIRST! Self explanatory! He knows all and He is the best one that can give me the best advice, comfort, and happiness.

3. GIVE TO OTHERS MORE! Instead of thinking, ME ME ME all the time. I'm going to think OTHERS OTHERS OTHERS more! I am very blessed with what I have and I want others to share in those many blessings!

4. BUILD LASTING RELATIONSHIPS WITH PEOPLE RATHER THAN SHORT TERM. I've always wanted to have a BFF (Best Friend Forever). Even better, 20,000 BFF's or more! I want to make a lasting impression on people so they think, "Man, Emily is freaking awesome! I wanna hang with her all time! Yeeah BFF Em!"

5. LEARN TO MANAGE MY MONEY & HAVE MORE TO PLAY WITH. My parents have agreed to help me learn more about finances and hopefully this year I can pay them back for paying my rent in 2007. ($1200 to go!) And then, if I'm lucky with a better paying job, I can get a credit card and earn credit to get a new car!!!! Aw the joys of being big!

6. FAMILY FIRST! These people never let me down, my family! I have the most AMAZING parents in the world! My siblings are the bomb.com when it comes to anything. My 5 little best friends, Mad, Hi, Kolby, Kaylin, & CJ put the biggest smiles on my face and I wouldn't trade anything or anyone for them!

7. GET READY FOR A NEW DAY, EVERYDAY! Last year I didn't really care about my appearance, but now if I want guys to even LOOK at me, I have to be cleaning up my look. Thanks to MOM I have contacts now so I can look decent without the bars in front of my face, BUT of course I get lazy so the glasses must stay, HOWEVER, instead of NO makeup at all, I will wear makeup alot more often. I've been trying new things with my hair too instead of just a ponytail or just a messy bun! Get ready for the HOT, NEW & IMPROVED EM!!!

8. BE POSITIVE AT WORK! No one likes a grumpy-gills, especially at work. So I'm going to try to be happy when I'm at work. Take the criticism and learn from it. It only makes me a better employee, which makes me a better person! As much as I dislike what I do, it's not the worst thing I could be doing. I mean, I could be back in the deli going home smelling like fried chicken!

9. BE CLEAN! INSIDE & OUT! And by "be clean" I mean, EVERYWHERE! Inside my body, outside my body, room, car, mouth, EVERYWHERE!!!! When I've had money I've been buying storage containers to put all my junk in. It saves space and I get to keep all my random junk. I'm going to try to eat healthier. As much as I HATE veggies, I will eat alot more of those! More juices and water, NO I didnt say I was giving up my addiction to WILD CHERRY PEPSI (because that would never happen in a million years), BUT I will drink more of that other stuff. NO tattoo's or anything else that can harm my outsides.

and 10. REALIZE WHAT MEANS THE MOST AND STAY CLOSE TO IT. Number one FAMILY ALWAYS! Number two THE GOSPEL ALWAYS Its just that simple. Heavenly Father knows what is best for me and wants to help me, if I let him. I know he is there for me and I know he loves me and wants me to be all I can be. I put all my trust in Him and that makes me so happy to know that he is there for me. I want to be happy and He can help me!

Thoughts & Comments are welcome! KEEP SMILIN' YA'LL!!!

Words that have made me stop and think about the last 7 months....

As alot of you know, I love music. It basically runs my life. So when I was doing my daily, go to YouTube; listen to music deal, I came upon this song that made me think about my breakup with Brandon! I always thought he was "the one" for me, that I was 100% happy with my life, and that everything was great until he broke up with me. We only dated for a month so why is that breakup hard on me? Why was it and why is it still? I didn't think I could ever find someone who could make me so happy as Brandon did. I looked forward to waking up and being able to talk to him but when we broke up, I didnt have that anymore. I felt so alone and so useless because I was very unhappy.

This song along with many others similar to it have given me strength to move on and I KNOW that there is in fact someone out there who will complete me and make me more happy than I've ever been. I haven't found him yet, but I know he is there! The Lord works in mysterious ways and I believe he watches out for me daily. Sometimes I just need a wake up call to get me back to what I'm supposed to be doing!
Here's the words. Its called, One Day You Will By Lady Antebellum

You feel like you’re falling backwards
Like you’re slippin’ through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can’t see it now

Chorus
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there’s a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won’t be much
you'll find love, you’ll find peace
And the you you’re meant to be
I know right now that’s not the way you feel
But one day you will

You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You’re just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you’re down to your last breath
And you don’t know it yet

Repeat Chorus

Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you’re made of, you’re made of

Repeat Chorus

One day you will
Oh one day you will

This song has changed my life. Right now, it is one of my favorites. Be sure to look it up so you can hear how it sounds too, (sorry I dont know how to post the vids from YouTube on here!) It's country so be aware of that, you non-country lovers! I cried when I first heard it but I've been an emotional wreck this week, so I've cried about the smallest things! :( Hope you like it!!!