Complete 180

Lets hope I can do this. I'm trying to live my life a little bit differently than I have the last year. I am 21. It's time to grow up, right?? I got the job at Michaels. (Thank goodness!) I've moved home for awhile, been here about 2 weeks now. I love being here and closer to the other kids. I still have gotten to see Kaylin too but not as much but I've been playing with Kolby, Mad, Hi, and Caleb alot more. Which is good for them. They haven't got to see me that much. I've realized that being home and always around family is good. I'm not sucked into the ways of the world and I'm more at peace. I love that.

So I'll be working at Michaels part time, and might still keep trying at Albertsons and maybe work 2 jobs for a while. We'll see what happens. It will be good to have something to do besides sitting on the computer or watching TV all the time, then I can have money for me to play around with again.

I've met a guy... HAHA... Things kinda ended suddenly with Dave but its for the best. He was supportive of my decision which was good. Anyways, back to new guy... I guess I technically havent *met* him, we've started talking online. Our relationship has blossomed into something great. He's called me every night since we've talked and we talk online alot still as well. Only sad thing is, he lives in Canada! At the end of June he put in for his passport and just this last Monday we had, he got it!!! Finally, he can come meet me!!! But he's not coming till the middle of August! :( A whole other month before I get to see him??? What am I going to do??? HAHA! We will still talk every night and still miss each other like we do. I'll try to keep you posted on me and what I'm doing alot more. I always get after my sisters for not updating as much just cause I want to see pictures/videos and stories of the kids more often.

My life is just starting to turn around and be better. I have a good job, a great family, awesome friends, amazing guy, and my loving most perfect Heavenly Father behind me. I want to change this time! I dont want to ruin anything I have anymore! I WILL BE HAPPY! Someday...