Life has been tough this last month.... time for an update!!!

WELL...... the last month I had was a crazy one!!! On the first day of June, I got fired from Babies R Us. It was a hard thing for me and I've been jobless ever since. I tried looking for jobs but didn't really try looking hard enough. Today, I got the motivation I needed, my mom threatening to take away two of my most favorite things...cell phone and her car back. I was devasatated. Never had I thought in one day I could have lost it all. From this day forward I have to prove to her that I CAN and WILL get a job and she WILL be proud of me again. I prayed alot today too which that hasn't been on my top priority list either but I prayed and I asked Heavenly Father to let something happen to get me to get a job. About an hour later, I got a call from Michaels and have an interview set up for tomorrow at 3pm! I applied at 7 different places today which include, Wal Mart, Shopko, Aeropostale, The Childrens Place, Motherhood Maternity, Archivers (scrapbooking store), and Deseret Book. All fun places to work!!! So if any one of these called me back I would gladly take them. Lots of tears have been shed today but my main goal is to make her happy and proud of me again. I don't need friends or any BOY (which that gets me in my most trouble anyways) to make me happy just as long as she is completely happy with what I am doing that is all that matters to me right now. I know she will read this and probably still have some steam coming out of her ears but I still love her and I want her to know how lucky I am to have a mother like her. Who wants nothing more than for me to succeed and be happy. And I want nothing more than to do that for her. I love her more than anything in this world and want her to be proud of me. I can't say that enough but I so do! For the last year she has put up with ALOT of my crap, and I never once stopped to thank her for being by my side helping me become a better woman. She is my hero and my best friend. A true woman of faith, virtue, knowledge, divine nature, good works, integrity, self worth, love, charity, and most of all her testimony. I'm crying as I type this because if you all knew how much she has gone through you would have given up on me a long time ago, but she never did and I hope she never will. MOM, I want to be your little girl. I want you to see the light I had in my eyes back. I want you to be proud of me and I want you to be involved in my life. I've messed up big time but I want you to know that I am so sorry for ever hurting you or disappointing you in any way. I'm gonna grow up now, ok? I'm 21 years old, its about damn time I do. Thanks for opening my eyes to see what a screw up I've been this last month. I'm gonna rock that interview tomorrow. :)