Scared....

I'm scared for what is about to go down
Cant even show a smile, but only a frown

I try to hide the streaming tears
Looking for anyone to calm these fears

I'm scared to look at myself and see nothing
Wishing and hoping, I could be something

This whole time I sit and reflect
When will I ever earn your respect?

I'm scared I've ruined all of my chances
Lost all the love and romances

I know that I have a lot to prove
My trust, my honor, and my love

I'm scared you won't forgive
I dont blame you, but it hurts to live

Live with all the hurt and pain
All the sadness and the rain

I'm scared that hope is all but lost
But I know it all comes with a cost

I'll pay the price, whatever it takes
I'd swim over any ocean or lakes

I'm scared to let you down again
But I will just start by being your friend

I'm sorry.