Sometimes, you never realize what you have until its gone. Its been almost 2 months since Brandon and I broke up and it is still hurting. When you love someone and then have to cut off all ties is really hard. I miss him more than anything in this world. I see couples all the time so happy and in love and I want that back! I want to be in love again and always smiling and knowing for sure there is someone who isn't my family really caring about me!
But, isn't that what really matters? Your family? True friends? I have gained such a better relationship with my mom and my sisters these past few months. They've gone through everything I have. Not in the same way but similar! I am so grateful for my family and the great examples they have been these past 20 years! :)
Once you've gone through something as hard as this it takes time for your heart to heal. I had never really truly felt my heart being broken as when I did that night and a few days after Brandon broke it off with me. I thought in the past that I really loved a few people but when I met Brandon, everything changed. I knew I was in love and I couldnt deny it. I still am in love and wont deny it. He's my best friend, feelings like that just cant be changed, at least not for me. Of course I know that moping around doing nothing wont help anyone, I learned that from my amazing friends and my even more amazing family. AND that right there my friends IS what really matters the most. The relationships you build now with your friends and family, even more importantly your family. Yeah, it sucks getting your heart ripped out and torn into shreads but thats why the Lord puts those other people in your life to come and pick up the pieces and help you be strong for the next person. Brandon was that person for me when I had broken pieces with Craig, and whoever the next guy is will help me with Brandon, unless its Brandon then I dont know whats going to happen, but who really does? Only our Heavenly Father knows what will happen. Was it a mistake dating or being around the people who havent been the greatest of examples? I dont think so, it was a learning experience for me. I have no regrets. I love my life and all the crap that gets thrown at me, BRING IT ON!!!! ;)
3 comments:
EMILY! Thanks so much for listening to me spill my guts out and helping me feel better about everything! I knew I had to call you because you've been through everything I have. And I loved that you visited me today and brought me WCP! Seriously, you mean so much to me and I'm super glad that we're friends! LOVE YOU!
Your right all that matters is your family. But you need to make you happy and know the ins and outs of you. Go listen to Miss Independent by Kelly Clarkston. You go girl. Everything will fall into place, just be patient, love will come back around..I PROMISE
Em...I LOVE ya and I know that this time has been hard on you! Family is what matters and it is important to know the "ins and outs of you" but... Family is always #1 they Love you for you and don't place judgement on you!
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