I'm going in those doors someday!

The Temple at sunset is really pretty!!!

At the Joseph Smith Memorial Building

Yes, we went to Temple Square again! It was a lot of fun walking around with him again. We took alot more pics of us this trip cause we werent all awkward and shy like last time. This time we went to the top of the Joseph Smith Memorial Building which was really cool.

Later that night we went to see District 9! It was a really bloody gruesome movie and I didnt particularly like that, but Chris wanted to see it so we went.

Pics From The Last Post Cause The Pics Uploader Thing Wouldn't Work...

Chris First Visit Part Three. Lunch. Movie. Oak City

This picture was taken at Costa Vida by Jenny. I dont really like my face but look how hot Chris looks!!!! :) That's how it was most of his trip, I couldn't take my eyes off of him and he couldn't take his eyes off of me.

After lunch we took Jenny back to Alpine and then Chris and I went to see G.I. Joes. I LOVED it!!!! Chris thought it was 'alright'. He's more into movies than I am so he's seen alot more with better graphics/special effects bla bla bla.... anyways, I loved it!!! :)

Then after the movie we drove the long trecherous roads to Oak City. Dinner was ready when we got there and so was Mom, Dad, Ryan, Tiff, and Kolby. Chris met everyone and we ate Hawaiian Haystacks. I noticed Chris talking to my family and wanting to get to know them. I really loved that. Kolby wanted to go outside so we all went outside but my parents only have 4 chairs, so Chris and I took the hammock. It was a lot of fun trying to get balanced in it. We only fell out once. :) Matt got home from work so Chris and Matt were talking and they gamed for a bit. Later, Chris and I went back outside and looked at the stars. It was so nice to be there and be holding his hand and cuddling with him. We shared our first kiss together in that hammock. It was really nice. I LOOOOOVE kissing him!

The next day, we went riding with Matt and some of his friends on the dunes. It was Chris' first time on a 4 wheeler.. dont worry I took it slow for him. We had a lot of fun riding but then went back to the house and played with Madelyn, Hiett, and CJ who showed up a few minutes before we went riding. Later in the afternoon, Chris and I took Mad and Hi to the park. We played a few games with them, pushed them in the swings and went down the slide a few times. I had alot of fun. We went back home and Jennie and JD were almost back. We had quesidilla's for dinner and they were really good. Chris and I stayed home Saturday night and watched the Curious Case of Benjamin Button with my parents.

The next day we went to Sacrament together. Held hands the whole time. Mom told me later that people came up to her asking who the boy was that I had brought home. Guess people notice that kind of thing. :S After sacrament, we packed up and I took him to the airport. That may have been the saddest thing hugging him in the airport. I cried for a few minutes after he left. BUT.... he's coming back today!!! YAY!!!! So I'll be sure to blog about this weekend too, and maybe put up more pics on Facebook.

I love Chris and I'm so grateful to have him in my life. He is 15 hours away but I know that he loves me as if he were 15 minutes away. I can't wait to spend more time with him this weekend and I am so lucky to have someone who loves and cares about me. I am really happy and content with my life and where it is going. THANK GOODNESS!!!! It's about time!!! :)

Chris First Visit Part Two. Temple Square!!

Have you ever tried parking at Temple Square? I wouldn't recommend it. We had alot of trouble finding a place close AND we had to get cash to park there, which if you know me I dont carry loose cash around, and I dont think they would take Canadian money. :) Anyways, so we get to Temple Square and it is just absolutely gorgeous. Chris and Jenny looked like such tourists snapping pictures. They both got some good ones. We decided to go to the top of the Church Office Building, which was really cool. You could see the whole Salt Lake Valley. Then we went to the Joseph Smith Memorial Building. I didn't know that building used to be a hotel one day. I guess you learn new things everyday!!! We decided to go into the North Visitors Center where they have alot of pictures of the Savior and the big statue of the Savior is in there as well. We also went on a small tour about families there as well. One of the missionaries had a really thick southern accent, she was from North Carolina. Then we got hungry so we went to the Gateway Mall to eat at Costa Vida.

Chris First Visit Part One... The Airport!

Sorry it has taken me so long to blog about Chris' first trip, I've been working nonstop and havent really had time to sit because I've been cleaning the apartment for my new roomates to move in, in my spare time. Now I've got some time, I'll blog about his first trip.

I was really nervous to get him. I had all these feelings of, 'What if he doesn't like me?', 'What if I embarrass myself and he doesn't wanna be seen with me?', 'What if I don't like him?' Finally the day came and the night before I woke up every hour cause I was so nervous/excited for him to be here. I got up and got ready for him to come. I thought I looked good, didnt have my contacts but I thought I still looked good. I took off and picked up Jenny. The entire drive up she was psyching me out and making me even more nervous. We went to her work first and I took a tour of that. Finally, we were off to the airport to get him. He called right as we were pulling in. He got there before we did!!!! He said he would just wait in the bag claim till we got there. I parked the car and we went in the airport. As we were going down the stairs, Jenny was like, 'Em, what if he's that guy! Or that guy!!! He's like a mile away from you!!!' Got so nervous. Finally we saw him. He looked so chill and I felt like such a spaz. My heart actually jumped when I first saw him. I went over tapped him and said 'Hey!' Thinking to myself, 'What, no hey good lookin? Hey Chris? Just hey!' But thats all that needed to be said. Jenny stood close by as we had our first awkward hug, it was only awkward because he had his backpack on. :) So then we walked out to the car and went to Temple Square.

Yep! 5 Days!

HAHA!!! Chris is coming in 5 days! Well... technically 4 cause he'll be here early on the 7th! Can't even tell you how nervous/excited I am! We're going to have a good time! Trust me, I'll be blogging about it and taking lots of pics of us for Facebook as well. I am just so happy that I have found someone who really makes me happy. He's so nice to me and I don't know what I would do without him. Ok, Emily breathe!! I'm so nervous! Ah!

UPDATE, The Better One!

Ok, so the last update on me sucked. Sooo..... you get another one. This one is more updated I guess from like 2 days ago cause alot has happened to me in just 2 days.

I went to work on Thursday. Had a long shift and did cashier training then was thrown on a register. THANK GOODNESS I worked at Babies R Us, so I knew how to run a register, cause it was pretty hard. It was a lot of getting used to but after about a constant hour of ringing people up I got it down pat. After that they had me put out some stickers and that went by pretty fast cause before I knew it, I was going on my lunch. When I came back from my lunch, I did recovery which was to find things that were out of place and put them back in their place. Then we did returns and then it was time to go home.

Had work on Friday, got there and helped another new girl put out some fall candles and then later got my own project of putting out some other candles on another aisle. That took me about 3 hours to do, then I went on my lunch and came back and did another project, recovery, returns, then home. I really like it there, its going to take some getting used to but I do like it. I have a full work week next week with almost 30 hours so that will be good.

Chris is coming earlier than expected!!!! YAY!!!! He's coming in 13 days. So August 7!!!! YAY! He's on a direct flight from Calgary to SLC and will get here pretty fast (only a 2 hour flight). We've decided to go to Temple Square and check stuff out there. Then we're going to my parents and spending the weekend down there. Then Sunday he leaves. :( But then he's coming back on the 21st again!!!

So thats what I'm basically doing, Working and talking to Chris. :) Things are going better than they were. My car has been acting up so I've been using my mom's car. Lets hope it can get fixed. Jenny has been busy so our schedules have been kinda mixed up and we haven't been able to hang out much but I still always want to. Guess we'll figure something out, right?

I love my life right now and how I know I want to change to be a better person and do whats right and hang out with the right people. But things are going good. :)

Complete 180

Lets hope I can do this. I'm trying to live my life a little bit differently than I have the last year. I am 21. It's time to grow up, right?? I got the job at Michaels. (Thank goodness!) I've moved home for awhile, been here about 2 weeks now. I love being here and closer to the other kids. I still have gotten to see Kaylin too but not as much but I've been playing with Kolby, Mad, Hi, and Caleb alot more. Which is good for them. They haven't got to see me that much. I've realized that being home and always around family is good. I'm not sucked into the ways of the world and I'm more at peace. I love that.

So I'll be working at Michaels part time, and might still keep trying at Albertsons and maybe work 2 jobs for a while. We'll see what happens. It will be good to have something to do besides sitting on the computer or watching TV all the time, then I can have money for me to play around with again.

I've met a guy... HAHA... Things kinda ended suddenly with Dave but its for the best. He was supportive of my decision which was good. Anyways, back to new guy... I guess I technically havent *met* him, we've started talking online. Our relationship has blossomed into something great. He's called me every night since we've talked and we talk online alot still as well. Only sad thing is, he lives in Canada! At the end of June he put in for his passport and just this last Monday we had, he got it!!! Finally, he can come meet me!!! But he's not coming till the middle of August! :( A whole other month before I get to see him??? What am I going to do??? HAHA! We will still talk every night and still miss each other like we do. I'll try to keep you posted on me and what I'm doing alot more. I always get after my sisters for not updating as much just cause I want to see pictures/videos and stories of the kids more often.

My life is just starting to turn around and be better. I have a good job, a great family, awesome friends, amazing guy, and my loving most perfect Heavenly Father behind me. I want to change this time! I dont want to ruin anything I have anymore! I WILL BE HAPPY! Someday...

Life has been tough this last month.... time for an update!!!

WELL...... the last month I had was a crazy one!!! On the first day of June, I got fired from Babies R Us. It was a hard thing for me and I've been jobless ever since. I tried looking for jobs but didn't really try looking hard enough. Today, I got the motivation I needed, my mom threatening to take away two of my most favorite things...cell phone and her car back. I was devasatated. Never had I thought in one day I could have lost it all. From this day forward I have to prove to her that I CAN and WILL get a job and she WILL be proud of me again. I prayed alot today too which that hasn't been on my top priority list either but I prayed and I asked Heavenly Father to let something happen to get me to get a job. About an hour later, I got a call from Michaels and have an interview set up for tomorrow at 3pm! I applied at 7 different places today which include, Wal Mart, Shopko, Aeropostale, The Childrens Place, Motherhood Maternity, Archivers (scrapbooking store), and Deseret Book. All fun places to work!!! So if any one of these called me back I would gladly take them. Lots of tears have been shed today but my main goal is to make her happy and proud of me again. I don't need friends or any BOY (which that gets me in my most trouble anyways) to make me happy just as long as she is completely happy with what I am doing that is all that matters to me right now. I know she will read this and probably still have some steam coming out of her ears but I still love her and I want her to know how lucky I am to have a mother like her. Who wants nothing more than for me to succeed and be happy. And I want nothing more than to do that for her. I love her more than anything in this world and want her to be proud of me. I can't say that enough but I so do! For the last year she has put up with ALOT of my crap, and I never once stopped to thank her for being by my side helping me become a better woman. She is my hero and my best friend. A true woman of faith, virtue, knowledge, divine nature, good works, integrity, self worth, love, charity, and most of all her testimony. I'm crying as I type this because if you all knew how much she has gone through you would have given up on me a long time ago, but she never did and I hope she never will. MOM, I want to be your little girl. I want you to see the light I had in my eyes back. I want you to be proud of me and I want you to be involved in my life. I've messed up big time but I want you to know that I am so sorry for ever hurting you or disappointing you in any way. I'm gonna grow up now, ok? I'm 21 years old, its about damn time I do. Thanks for opening my eyes to see what a screw up I've been this last month. I'm gonna rock that interview tomorrow. :)

JENNY LYNN OSTLER... MY BEST FRIEND!

Well, here I go again blogging. I thought a few months back that I blogged about Leah Miller one of my best friends that I should blog about Jenny, my other best friend. Here we go, J.O. this is for you! By the way, I went and took all of these pics from my tagged pictures on Facebook, went and edited them on picnik.com, and then posted them all on here. These are just all of the many pics and many faces and adventures that Jenny and I went on. And all the songs are songs we have listened to in the car or at her house and just aren't as fun to listen to with other people. Its a pretty random playlist but I decided to put them on here. Have fun!

Shotgun Shooting with friends!

Jenny really brings out the best in me! I mean, by this goofy smile I'm sporting, you can tell we always have a good time. One of my best and favorite memories was playing Phase 10. I always went to her apartment with my game on but she always beat me. Guess she was "more lucky" or just a good player. But I loved going there and playing Phase 10 and just laughing and talking about our eventful days or sometimes uneventful. I always know that I can have a good laugh whenever we are together.

Isn't she beautiful?

This picture is one of Jenny's favorites. It always makes me laugh when I see it. She is a goofball at times. WELL... lets introduce you all to JENNY LYNN OSTLER if you don't know who she is. Jenny is from Alpine, Utah where she currently lives until the fall where she will move back to Provo to go back to her second year at UVU, still studying Psychology. She works at a place in Salt Lake City called OKManufacturing. She has 4 sisters and 3 brothers. She is 3rd in line and is a good example to her younger siblings. She graduated from Lone Peak High School in 2008. She has a lot of friends and people really dig her bubbly outgoing personality. She is honest and caring and would give her life for anyone. I love her oh so much!

Dancin' on tables was always a good time!

Throwing the Deuces!

I'm Ben. She's Jerry. We are a team. We go together like PB&J. Our personalities are so similar but different. I think that's how we get along so good. I can be myself when I am with Jenny. She brings out this side to me that I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not when I am with her. Who wouldn't want a friend like that?

Just Being Silly!

4-Wheeling in Oak City! Yes, she came to Oak City. She surprisingly LOVED it! I mean who wouldn't? :D

Jenny, J.O., JenJen, Jerry, J to the O, I love you girly! I know I haven't been the best of example to you the past few weeks but I just want to let you know that I love you and I care about you more than you even know. You've taught me more about myself than I would have ever known about myself. Thank you for always being there for me and showing that you care about me. I couldn't ask for a better best friend and I am so glad I have you to help lift me up and make me smile. You're the best Jenny O!