Nope, October 6th is NOT my wedding day.... its the day I'm going to Canada again. Staying October 6th-October 12th! CANT WAIT!!! VERY EXCITED! :)

October 6th

Thats really all that needs to be said.... October 6th.

Home

Oak City is and always will be my home. I've moved back in case some of you who read don't know about my life. Some days it's very eventful, other days it's very UNeventful.

Jennie has gone back to work so one, sometimes two days a week I go down to watch her kids. They are sure a handful but I do love babysitting them. I get to know each of them individually and it's just nice to be out of the house. I've put myself on the sub list at the schools to be a substitute lunch worker, janitor, and teacher. Although, I have to wait till the 21st of September to take this online class to be a substitute teacher, but I'm sure I will get called to be a sub at least once maybe twice a week. Who knows? Maybe I have my hopes up too high.

I've been going to the single's ward and have been loving it thus far. Its so nice to be in an environment with people my age striving to do the same things I am, which is doing whats right and coming unto Christ. Its nice to have friends with the same values. I'm going to a single adult party tonight in Gunnison with a friend from the singles ward. Her name is Becca. I didn't want to go unless Becca was going because I knew Chris would freak out if I went alone and there would be other single guys there. I knew that if I had a wingman (woman) there I could just be around her and no one would confront me. Hey, if all else fails, I'll tell everyone I'm engaged and put my ring on my left finger. :) But I am grateful they started the singles ward so I could be around people my age trying to do whats right too.

I'm watching the Murphy kids on Monday, and really looking forward to it. This will be my first time ALONE watching Kaylin and both of the babies. (Last time I just watched Kay and Ash) We'll see if I could ever have twins, but I'm sure I'll just leave it to Bobbie to have the twins. ;) Maybe after Monday, I REALLY won't want to have kids of my own. I've decided I don't want babies from newborn to 7 months and I don't want kids from 3-18. HAHA! Basically I want 8 months-3 years. And I would maybe have a 5 year old, just so I could take them to school. If only it worked that way. A girl can dream right???

I totally just ditched mom so she could watch the HGTV show by herself. Dang, I kinda wanted to see that reveal... ugggh. Oh well. I blogged, so ya'll should be happy! And for those of you who do blog and read my blog and you haven't updated yours in WHO KNOWS HOW LONG.... shame on you!!! Now... go update yours so I can see what you're doing with your lives... you know who you are... (Jennie, Jenny, Leah, Val, Monica Miller, Karina, Sarah, Tiffany, Javan, Chelse' Kay, Whitney Lynn, and Chelise!) As for the rest of you.... Thank you for updating.

Expectations VS. Trust

I've been thinking a lot lately about expectations and trust. Is it an expectation for all of us to trust those who have hurt us or should we just trust someone without any expectations?

I think both can work, but is it good? We should be expected to trust someone based ONLY on the truth and not what they've done in the past. They may have been forgiven for the wrong they've done or made a vow to themselves to not lie anymore and are doing a great job at changing. We can only expect the truth from someone until that trust is broken, then we have free rights to not expect anything more or less from them until they either apologize for lying or we just get so sick of the lies that we let go of them. But then, when they've lied you get the building up the trust again when they've apologized; and thats not very good. (Depending on the lie, I guess.)

You can also trust someone without expecting anything from them too, right? Only expecting them to tell the truth? And having faith and hoping they will always tell you the truth for you to trust them? Its harder for someone to trust someone if they've continuously lied to you, especially if you KNOW they are lying to you and they completely deny it. You shouldn't be expected to go on trusting someone who obviously cannot be trusted.

I think trust and expectations, go hand in hand. You in more ways have to expect someone to be trusted in order to trust what is expected of them, which is to tell you the truth. Confusing, I know. But these are my thoughts tonight.

Goodnight world!

Happiness!!! :)

"Sometimes you think that when you've done such a terrible job at something then someone recognizes you did a great job just makes you want to strive to always do a great job!" (Yes, that is my status update) I made this up myself, who'd have thought I still had my poetic bug in my system from high school??

This all stemmed from me giving a talk a few weeks ago. I was super nervous because it had been over 2 years since I've given a talk, and wasn't very confident in my speech giving. The day came and I was more and more nervous as time went on. I sat up on the stand and noticed how many people were there and about peed my pants and wanted to walk out. I had the opportunity to speak with two return missionaries, that just made me think that I was so much more under qualified to give that talk. Alex was speaking first and his talk was mostly a blurr because I was so worried about how my talk was going to be. Finally it was my time to get up and talk about FAITH! It went well and people complimented me alot! I was surprised!

Yesterday I came home and had a letter for me on the table and it was from an amazing woman who I had no idea I even existed, she complimented me on my talk and it just made me feel very good about myself. She will never know how much that small card impacted me and those kind words have impacted me especially in this hard week that I've had. Now I want to send her a card back thanking her for thanking me for my talk! :)

People are amazing! :) At least this person!

Update on the update!

I put my two weeks in at Michaels! My last day is next Saturday the 14th, so I won't be moving home till next weekend! :( But it will be good to get a good last paycheck! :) I'm very excited to move home and cannot wait to get out of Orem. Isn't that the other way around??? That people want to get out of Oak City to go to Orem? HAHA funny... silly me!

The update everyone has been waiting for....

No, I'm not engaged, pregnant, or got married over the weekend. BUT, it is very big news. Especially if you are my friend. :) Because this economy sucks so bad and times are tough for me, I have fasted, pondered, and prayed about moving home and got my confirmation yesterday that moving home was the right decision for me at this time in my life. I knew that I wanted to move home because I couldn't pay my rent up here BUT I didn't feel like it was the right thing for me, but then I fasted and prayed about it yesterday and now I KNOW that moving home will be the best thing for me.

Now, for all of my friends and family that live up in Utah, Salt Lake, and whatever other county that is closer to Orem than Oak City, this is NOT the end. I still love the big city and will be coming up almost bi-weekly to hang out. Be warned. I still want to have a social life but I can't really afford to pay $300 for rent right now, but I will still come up for birthday parties, parties, welcoming home parties, lunches, dinners, or whatever else you have planned.

Moving home has a lot of pro's and con's and I have considered them and out weighed my options and moving home seems the best for me right now at this stage of my life.

PRO's:

1. FREE RENT!

2. FREE FOOD!

3. FREE CABLE!

4. MEETING NEW FRIENDS AT THE SINGLES BRANCH!

5. GETTING A BETTER RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH OF MY PARENTS!

6. LEARNING HOW TO MANAGE MY MONEY BETTER!

7. SEEING THE KIDS AND SOMETIMES BEING A BABYSITTER!

8. BEING A HELP TO MY MOM AND DAD AROUND THE HOUSE!

9. NOT AS BUSY OF A LIFESTYLE!

10. LEARNING HOW TO COOK MORE THINGS!

CON's:

1. NOT AS MUCH FREEDOM!

2. NOT WORKING AT MICHAELS!

3. DRIVING TO DELTA FOR WORK!

4. NOT SEEING THE MURPHY'S AS MUCH!

5. BEING ALONE!

So as you can see there is so much more GOOD than BAD when I move home. I am worried about the freedoms and curfews but its all about life and growing up. If you move back home, you have to obey the rules of the parents. So thats my BIG news... oh AND its going into effect this weekend (August 6-8).

Its been a while since I've updated. I think I need to get in a better habit of updating. I always say that and I know other bloggers say that as well, but this time its for real!

This summer has been a FUN one! I've been going home every weekend and going to the singles ward down there. I hate it because they have a lot of activities planned throughout the week and I am never able to go to them, which really bothers me, because I want to be involved in this ward. Alot of the other wards I've been in, I haven't ever wanted to be so involved but this ward I am wanting to be so badly, but I still live in Orem. :( The option of moving home has been in the back of my mind and I admit it would be a heck of a lot easier to live at home, and I'm sure my parents wouldnt mind. The only thing is, is I have a GREAT job here. I would have to find a job that I might like down there. Still, moving home is in the back of my mind and I haven't really talked to my parents about it yet. They've been empty nesters for weeks now... having a kid move back, would kinda ruin their groove of things.

The twins were born June 12, 2010. They just came home from the NICU yesterday and I've been wanting to spend alot of my time with them. They are pretty easy to take care of but they dont crawl, walk, talk, roll over, or spit up yet. Bobbie and Ryan will have their hands full when that happens. I do love them alot though. They just have the sweetest looking faces and little cries. :)

This is totally off subject, but I've had the hardest time trying to keep my room clean. I dont know why but ever since I've moved into this new apartment, there is ALWAYS clutter all over. I know part of the reason is because I do have a lot of stuff but when I lived in the other apartment in the same size of room, I could always seem to keep it cleaner than I've kept this room clean. What is the problem? I dont understand it. Getting rid of things is NOT an option though. HAHA!

I'm going to Canada again next week!!!! YAY!!!!! I'm going to the Calgary Stampede!!! Its supposed to be this HUGE thing! If anyone wants special pics/souveniers from Canada let me know by next Thursday cause thats when I'll get there! Its going to be alot of fun because every other time I've gone to Canada its been CRAZY COLD!!!! This time, Chris said it was going to warm up, lets hope I cant bring my flip flops and shorts, and not be bundled in two pairs of socks and blankets!!! I cant wait to go!!! YAY!!!! :)

ER Visit= NOT FUN!

Sunday night I went to the emergency room, lets just say it was NOT a fun experience for me. Last Tuesday my hand started shaking uncontrollably. I thought it was because I hadn't ate anything all day and I just needed to eat... False. My hand still kept shaking when I'd hold it up but only then. (Very strange indeed!) Saturday I decided to look up symptoms on WebMd. This site is very cool cause you can put where it hurts or is giving you problems then it asks you some questions then gives you your "conditions". It really works, cause I've diagnosed my own menstral cramps before. :) Anyways, it just said I needed more calcium and potassium... (obviously it had more doctory terms but I dont remember then and quite frankly dont want to look just for a blog post, because how many doctor friends do I have? Thats right, NONE!)

Next day is Sunday and I wake up and feel fine. While at church my shakes start turning into these violent twitches in my whole left arm. Not thinking anything of it, I just shake it off (no pun intended) and go about my church meetings, all the while being VERY embarrassed that someone is going to see my twitching and think I have tourettes or something. I get home and everyone is there. Throughout the afternoon the twitches became more frequent and painful/poweful. By this time, I'm freaking out! I asked my dad to give me a blessing and my brothers accompanyed him. After the blessing I felt like I needed to go to the hospital but didnt all at the same time. I felt like I needed to for the reassurance that I wasn't deadly ill but didnt for the fact of I knew that it wasn't a serious thing. I followed what my heart told me and we went to the hospital. Thank goodness for the Spirit telling me or I would probably STILL be paranoid about it... (okay probably not....)

Because the Delta hospital is very low staffed and they would probably tell me to go to Utah Valley anyways, I went up there. Mom and Dad came with me, which was an amazing experience because I felt so loved and taken care of with them. We got to the hospital and waited FOREVER!!! We saw a little boy who was VERY sick come in with his parents and he got rushed right back to a doctor, I told Mom that she should've done that with me and we could've gotten back there sooner... she obviously disagreed with me! FINALLY, they call me back. My ER Tech Kelly was VERY nice and he seemed to make me feel more at peace than anyone there really. I changed into my gown and waited in the bed for the doctor. After about a 20 minute wait he came in and did some tests on me... physical tests to see if I could walk a straight line, touch my nose then his finger, and some others. He decided I should have a catscan and some blood work done... (EEEEK!!!) and see how we are from there! Kelly came in to take me to my catscan which wasn't too terribly bad, just a weird feeling... like something was scanning my head and my brain!!! Raschell took me back to my room and Kelly met me back there to take my blood and give me an IV. I told him it was my first time getting one and he didn't mind but he was very gentle on my poor britle... okay it wasn't THAT bad... but my little arm that hadn't had a needle in it since I was a little girl.

Doc comes back, says there's nothing wrong just he feels I have some sort of anxiety and need to deal with my stressors in different ways! Before I left they gave me something in my IV that made me pass out and become VERY loopy!!! (I LOVED that!!!) I slept alot and have been sleeping alot more and a lot better!! I have anxiety pills now and I seem to be in better spirits about everything!! Lets hope the twitching doesnt come back to haunt me!

PICTURE PARTY!!!!!!

{Rules} Pull up your picture folder, open up the first folder, find the 10th picture in the folder and post about that picture on your blog. Then tag others! I tag Leah, Bobbie, Jennie, Jenny O, Cassidy, Chris, and Tiffany H.

Umm.... this was Kaylin's first Christmas. I dont know what she was doing but it looks like stretching out to play with her new toys. :) Its pretty crazy how much my nieces and nephews have grown in such a short time. Kaylin was almost ONE and I dont think she was walking yet. (I could be wrong, but its been a while since she was at this stage so I dont remember.) I wish you could see her face but it said the 10th picture so... there you go! HAVE FUN!!!!!