2009 BRING IT ON/ The Change Begins With Me!

2009 so far has been alot of fun! Being 21, has been ALOT of fun! I've been focusing more of my time trying to be happy, rather than sad. I've been too busy moping around feeling sorry for myself, WELL... I'm done with that! No more Sad Em! I'm bringing Happy Go Lucky Em back, whether you like it or not!!!

Some things I am going to try to change, no resolutions just things that I could change and probably should but I won't be hard on myself if I don't change 100%.

1. SMILE MORE! LAUGH AT THE TRIALS! That's a big one! Most people can't laugh at the bad things that happen to them, I'm going to try to have a more positive outlook on trials. Try not to always ask "WHY is this happening to me?" buY "HOW can I become better because of this trial?"

2. GO TO THE LORD FIRST! Self explanatory! He knows all and He is the best one that can give me the best advice, comfort, and happiness.

3. GIVE TO OTHERS MORE! Instead of thinking, ME ME ME all the time. I'm going to think OTHERS OTHERS OTHERS more! I am very blessed with what I have and I want others to share in those many blessings!

4. BUILD LASTING RELATIONSHIPS WITH PEOPLE RATHER THAN SHORT TERM. I've always wanted to have a BFF (Best Friend Forever). Even better, 20,000 BFF's or more! I want to make a lasting impression on people so they think, "Man, Emily is freaking awesome! I wanna hang with her all time! Yeeah BFF Em!"

5. LEARN TO MANAGE MY MONEY & HAVE MORE TO PLAY WITH. My parents have agreed to help me learn more about finances and hopefully this year I can pay them back for paying my rent in 2007. ($1200 to go!) And then, if I'm lucky with a better paying job, I can get a credit card and earn credit to get a new car!!!! Aw the joys of being big!

6. FAMILY FIRST! These people never let me down, my family! I have the most AMAZING parents in the world! My siblings are the bomb.com when it comes to anything. My 5 little best friends, Mad, Hi, Kolby, Kaylin, & CJ put the biggest smiles on my face and I wouldn't trade anything or anyone for them!

7. GET READY FOR A NEW DAY, EVERYDAY! Last year I didn't really care about my appearance, but now if I want guys to even LOOK at me, I have to be cleaning up my look. Thanks to MOM I have contacts now so I can look decent without the bars in front of my face, BUT of course I get lazy so the glasses must stay, HOWEVER, instead of NO makeup at all, I will wear makeup alot more often. I've been trying new things with my hair too instead of just a ponytail or just a messy bun! Get ready for the HOT, NEW & IMPROVED EM!!!

8. BE POSITIVE AT WORK! No one likes a grumpy-gills, especially at work. So I'm going to try to be happy when I'm at work. Take the criticism and learn from it. It only makes me a better employee, which makes me a better person! As much as I dislike what I do, it's not the worst thing I could be doing. I mean, I could be back in the deli going home smelling like fried chicken!

9. BE CLEAN! INSIDE & OUT! And by "be clean" I mean, EVERYWHERE! Inside my body, outside my body, room, car, mouth, EVERYWHERE!!!! When I've had money I've been buying storage containers to put all my junk in. It saves space and I get to keep all my random junk. I'm going to try to eat healthier. As much as I HATE veggies, I will eat alot more of those! More juices and water, NO I didnt say I was giving up my addiction to WILD CHERRY PEPSI (because that would never happen in a million years), BUT I will drink more of that other stuff. NO tattoo's or anything else that can harm my outsides.

and 10. REALIZE WHAT MEANS THE MOST AND STAY CLOSE TO IT. Number one FAMILY ALWAYS! Number two THE GOSPEL ALWAYS Its just that simple. Heavenly Father knows what is best for me and wants to help me, if I let him. I know he is there for me and I know he loves me and wants me to be all I can be. I put all my trust in Him and that makes me so happy to know that he is there for me. I want to be happy and He can help me!

Thoughts & Comments are welcome! KEEP SMILIN' YA'LL!!!

Words that have made me stop and think about the last 7 months....

As alot of you know, I love music. It basically runs my life. So when I was doing my daily, go to YouTube; listen to music deal, I came upon this song that made me think about my breakup with Brandon! I always thought he was "the one" for me, that I was 100% happy with my life, and that everything was great until he broke up with me. We only dated for a month so why is that breakup hard on me? Why was it and why is it still? I didn't think I could ever find someone who could make me so happy as Brandon did. I looked forward to waking up and being able to talk to him but when we broke up, I didnt have that anymore. I felt so alone and so useless because I was very unhappy.

This song along with many others similar to it have given me strength to move on and I KNOW that there is in fact someone out there who will complete me and make me more happy than I've ever been. I haven't found him yet, but I know he is there! The Lord works in mysterious ways and I believe he watches out for me daily. Sometimes I just need a wake up call to get me back to what I'm supposed to be doing!
Here's the words. Its called, One Day You Will By Lady Antebellum

You feel like you’re falling backwards
Like you’re slippin’ through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can’t see it now

Chorus
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there’s a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won’t be much
you'll find love, you’ll find peace
And the you you’re meant to be
I know right now that’s not the way you feel
But one day you will

You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You’re just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you’re down to your last breath
And you don’t know it yet

Repeat Chorus

Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you’re made of, you’re made of

Repeat Chorus

One day you will
Oh one day you will

This song has changed my life. Right now, it is one of my favorites. Be sure to look it up so you can hear how it sounds too, (sorry I dont know how to post the vids from YouTube on here!) It's country so be aware of that, you non-country lovers! I cried when I first heard it but I've been an emotional wreck this week, so I've cried about the smallest things! :( Hope you like it!!!

What I've been up to!!!!

Well... since I last posted alot has happened. I started seriously dating someone but then broke up because we had different goals for the future and I need someone who has those same goals.. temple marriage, being crazy happy, etc. He didn't bring out the best in me, so I had to let him go. We, of course are still friends because I cant completely hate anyone, so we will always be friends.On December 11, 2008, Hiett and I celebrated our birthdays! Mom came up and we went to Chilli's for lunch and then went grocery shopping because I had no food. Then I went to get my friend Leah and we drove to Delta for the party. We had lots of balloons which the kids were soooo excited about and ate cake and ice cream. It was a lot of fun.

Christmas came and went as well. This year it was Kaylin and Caleb's first Christmas so that was a lot of fun. One of my friends at work took my shift so I could spend Christmas Eve with the family, thanks again Monica! We had almost 100 presents under the tree, Mom wrapped about 75 of those. We had a wonderful lunch/dinner at mom's and opened all the presents. The town had a special program at the hall so we decided we would go see that, then we played Life and watched movies. It was very relaxing. The next morning we went to see what Santa had brought all of the kids.

First stop, Kolby's house! Santa brought Kolby a slide!!! He had lots of fun showing us how it worked. He also got a lot of candy too!!!
Next stop was Madelyn, Hiett, and Caleb's house! Madelyn got a kitchen from Santa and was sooo photogenic as well. ;) She loved showing us how to cut the food and her favorite was also the slide that all 3 got to share. She was the biggest so she had to show us how it worked. Jennie made some rules that they had to go on their bums and they had to wait to go on the slide if someone else was on it, on the floor so no one got hurt. They seemed to do great with that. I loved Madelyn's cupcake jammies too! She also got a little Jasmine doll that she had asked Santa Clause for. It was alot of fun to see the smile on her face.
Hiett was a sicko on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, he wanted to be held and had sores in his mouth, poor boy! This was the best picture I got out of him on both days. He got a power wheels 4-wheeler that he had asked Santa for. He said he wanted Matt's brruummm brrumm but Jen & J thought one that he could ride would be great. He didnt ride it much because he was sick but also there wasnt alot of room to ride it inside. Once it gets warmer and the snow melts I bet Hiett will ride it almost everyday. Hopefully by then I will have pictures up and posted.

Caleb got a swing from Santa. For the past few times I have been around him, Jennie has let me hold him which is great! Most of the time he sleeps when I'm holding him but I dont mind that. He is getting to be soo big and is almost 2 months old now and wearing 3 month clothes. One of these days I will get a picture of him awake so you can see his beautiful eyes.
Kaylin had Santa come to Grammy & Poppy's house. He brought her a learning kitchen. We think that she will be able to pull herself up to stand with this toy. Its alot of fun and sings cute songs and teaches her. I love this!!! Good choice Bobbie! I think Kaylin got most spoiled this year.
Caleb got blessed on December 28, 2008 in Delta Utah by his dad, JD! This out of 7 or 8 photos was the best of the whole family. Hiett was still feeling sick so this was the best that day. They had a dinner after with BBQ sandwiches, potato & shrimp salad, chips & dessert. It was alot of fun to spend time with the entire family again.

New Years was spent with Traci, her mom, sister, and Traci's kids. We went to Hogle Zoo to look at the zoo lights! I was glad to have my warm coat there. We looked at the lights and they still had some animals there to look at too. We came back to Grandma's house and played Disney pictionary with other cousins too. At midnight we banged on pots and pans to celebrate the new year. Brandon came over for a bit too and we all talked. It was alot of fun.

January 3, 2008 I went to Oak City for Kolby's 2nd birthday party. Tiff made horse cupcakes and Kolby got a lot of construction toys, just like Daddy's. I had to work that night so I didn't get to spend much time there but the time I spent was a lot of fun. It always is when I am with my family. I love them all!

Of course I worked in between all of this craziness so thats my main reason for not updating but I promise I will try to update my life more often than every 2 months. I have baby showers, bridal showers, birthday parties, weddings, and so much more ahead of me. But I love my life and all that happens. Bring it on!!!! ;)

TO BE THANKFUL IS TO GIVE THANKS...

Well, Thanksgiving is tomorrow so I was thinking I should post about some of the things I am thankful for. I love to write and I've been told that all of my posts are like a story so this one isnt going to be short, just like all the other ones haven't been either.

The first and most important thing I am thankful for is my family. I am grateful that I can be myself with them. That they know when I'm sad and how to make it better. I am grateful for the men in the family that are all worthy priesthood holders and would be willing to give me a blessing if I needed one. I am grateful that I can talk to any of them about any of my problems and they won't judge me or make me feel bad. I am so grateful for the little ones in my family now, Madelyn, Hiett, Kolby, Kaylin, & Caleb. All 5 have unique ways of making me smile. I love them all very much.

Next, I am so thankful for the church. I am thankful for my Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. I dont know where I would be or who I would be if I didnt have their love and support in my life, especially now. I am thankful for Jospeh Smith for restoring the gospel back on the earth for me. I am thankful to him for translating the Book of Mormon. I am so thankful for the Book of Mormon and the joy it brings to my life. I am grateful for prayer and the power it has on me and my life. I am grateful for my trials and how they make and mold who I am and make me stronger. I am grateful for our prophet today, Thomas S. Monson, for being a great role model and leader. I am grateful for all my blessings.

Next, I am thankful for my friends. For the great examples they are in my life. Examples of faith, wisdom, virtue, & so many more. A few weeks ago I was thinking to myself about how many best friends I have and I thought of almost 20. I am grateful that they were all placed in my life when they were to help make me strong and build me up. I love them all.

Of course I am thankful for temporal things too. Food, clothes, shoes, money, blankets, my laptop, my cellphone, movies, music, TV, shopping, nature, etc.. etc.

Since Thanksgiving and Christmas are coming up, I hope all of us will stop and think about what we are thankful for and what makes us really happy. I hope its not our I-phones or Rockband, but our family, friends, the gospel.. those things that make us the most happy we can be. Our best selves. I hope we will all try to remember the real meaning of the season. And thats Jesus Christ, He is the reason for the season. The one reason why we celebrate CHRISTmas!

MY NEW LOVE....

Last Thursday I fell in love again! This time it was with a fictional character! Edward Cullen! Most of my friends were obsessed with the Twilight series and we had tickets to the premiere of Twilight, and I was told to read the book before I saw the movie. So on Monday I was sending out mass texts to everyone in the valley to see if they had the book. I was broke than ever so I couldn't go buy it, even though it was only $6 at Wal*Mart and I wasn't about to go to a library. Luckily, my friend Whitney's sister had the book, so I asked if I could borrow it, she said YES! I was excited. So for the next two days I read Twilight. And can I just tell you, I loved it! I don't like reading at all and so finding a really good book, made me happy. I finished the book 5 hours before it premiered. I instantly fell in love with Edward Cullen. There was no denying it. I mean look at him!!!! ;)

Robert Pattinson was the actor that played my love on the big screen! And WOW!!! I have never seen a more gorgeous person in my entire life. Just like Stephanie Meyer described him, he is beautiful. Every feature is just perfect. He played a vampire in the movie and I would let him bite me any day! I'm that in love. After the movie, I was smiling so big I looked like the biggest dork but thats what you do when your in love. Okay so maybe that was a little much but I love this movie. I recommend that anyone go see the movie but only after they read the book. But dont have your expectations too high, they didnt use alot that was in the book but they never do with movies anymore.

Well.... I would give the Twilight movie a rating of a 8. Like I said before they didnt use alot that was in the book and I really wanted them to put some of my favorite parts from the book in it but they didnt. :( I give all the other actors a 8, just because only one person can get a 10 and thats Robert Pattinson, my love Edward Cullen. Cant wait to read New Moon, Eclipse, & Breaking Dawn and to see the movies later on! Because Rob is cast in the next two!!!! YAY!!! I loved this movie and I cant stop thinking about it. Go see it!

Newest Addition...

On Thursday, our family grew bigger! Jennie had this little baby!!! His name is Caleb Joseph Stanworth. He was 8lb 1oz and 19inches long. He has dark blue eyes and brown kinda curly hair. As you can see by the pictures, he is sooo cute. Thanks to my sister Bobbie for taking these pictures and putting them on her Facebook so I could go steal them and put them on my blog! Since I dont have a digital camera yet... 32 more days! :) Caleb & his favorite Auntie Em ;)

Little Caleb!! :)

I love this one sooo much!!! Its all 5 kids and my mom and dad!!! Madelyn (3), Hiett (2), Poppy, Caleb (3 days), Kaylin (10 months), Grammy, & Kolby (2). My family is getting alot bigger and I love it. I love kids and its just so much fun to be around all of them. They each have their own little personalities. Every single one in some way or another knows how to put a smile on my face. :) I love my family and all that they have done for me these last 21 years of my life. I couldn't survive without their love and support for me all the time. I'm so thankful for that!!!

My FIRST Utah Jazz game...

One Saturday afternoon shopping at the mall with my mom and sisters, I get a phone call from my cousin Sarah. I didnt think this phone call was going to be too special because she is getting married soon and we are constantly talking about wedding plans and what not because I am a bridesmaid. But anyway, she asked me what I was doing that following Wednesday, usually when someone asks me what I'm doing I have other plans or have to work but I didnt have either of those, so I told her nothing, why? She said that Lincoln has his Jazz tickets and couldnt go to the games during the week and she wanted to take me! Instantly I said yes, I mean I had never been to a Jazz game, only watched it on TV, so of course I was excited.

When Wednesday rolled around and I realized I hadn't done my laundry in over 2 weeks. Do you know how many clothes a person like me goes through in 2 weeks? Yeah... its a lot! So I decide since I have the entire day off work I would go to Bobbie's and do laundry. I get to her house about 1pm, thinking I can get it all done before we have to leave at 5:30pm. Boy, was I wrong? So thanks to you Bobbie for finishing my laundry while I went and had an amazing time, you're the best oldest sister ever! (I had to say oldest sister because I think Jennie and Tiff read my blog and I dont want to offend anyone.)

I was sooo stoked to go to the game, I was even more stoked when Sarah said I could wear one of her Jazz jerseys! She wore Memo and I wore Williams! I took her to dinner at Arby's which we ate in the car on the drive up to Sandy so we could get on the Trax. It had been a really long time since I had been on Trax but it was a lot of fun and we got some crazy pics too!

Anyway, so we get to the game right as it is starting! I had never been to one of the games so it was like the most amazing feeling in the world. Like imagine seeing snow for the first time or seeing the ocean for the first time! It was THAT cool! Just the lights and the sounds. They turned off the lights and had a firework thing go BOOOM after they announced each player! Then the lights turned on and the music was still going and I was pumped! The first person I saw that made it all seem so surreal was Memo! He is soooo much taller than I thought he would be! It was the most awesome thing I have ever done!

OK so Blogger said I needed to title this and I titled it 3 pointer by BOOOZER but it was Memo, so my bad! :) But Sarah took this video at the game, it was sooo sick!!!! Also at the end, she does a shot of the play being replayed on the jumbotron, which later in the game we were on! We just danced like crazy fools and it was just sooo much fun! Sarah had never been on the jumbotron and her and Lincoln always go to the games so I felt cool that we made it on there!

Another person who made it on the jumbotron was this guy! He didnt make it on there because he was dancing cute or being cool, he made it on there for being a complete idiot. As you can see, his jersey does not say "Utah" or "Jazz" on it... it says "Portland" He was rooting for the other team, (poor guy!) anyway, The Jazz Bear was going around and spraying silly string on fans and just being a character, well... this guy was NOT having that. He stood up walked towards the bear and poured his BEER on the bear! What an idiot, right? That makes it on the jumbotron too so that everyone can see, and so us UTAH fans start boo-ing at him. Security comes and takes him outside to give him a talk. The game is still going on by the way. He comes back in and fans start throwing garbage at him, Man I love Utahns! Then we all see the Jazz Bear with a green bucket running up the stairs. Security tried to stop him but he just busted past them and went and dumped a whole bucket of water on this guy and knocked him down and threw the bucket on him, that guy was so mad!!!! This is a picture that Sarah took of the bear pouring the water on him! It was classic! I was laughing so hard afterwards and will always remember that happening at my first Jazz game!!!
What a fun game that was! Jazz WON! 101-96! Thanks so much to Lincoln for giving me the chance to go see that game with his soon to be wife Sarah. She is my best friend and I knew it was hard for him to give up his ticket and his best friend too, to me for the night but it was a chance of a lifetime to go to a Jazz game with such good seats as well. Thanks also to Sarah for putting up with me at the game, I got a little wild and crazy, especially when Kyle Korver was on the court! If you havent seen this guy, look him up because he is such a HOTTIE!!! WOW! I had the best time that night and I will never forget this as long as I live. Thanks everyone!

Leah Miller aka Shorty Mac aka My Best Friend...

HAHAHA!!! That's her! My best friend and the most crazy, sweet, genuine, amazing, spiritual, funny, spontaneous person I've probably ever met, Miss Leah Miller!!! :) Leah and I met a little over a year ago and of course hit it off right then. She lived just down the hall from me and we were in the same ward too! We didnt actually become like "best friends" until this summer. I have learned so much from this girl! I've learned that no matter what life throws at you, just smile and let the Lord help you through it! Thanks Leah! :)

Let's give you the run-down on Miss Leah Miller... Leah was born March 6, 1988! She is from Bismark, North Dakota! Her mom is Honduran and her dad is white, and thats why she is sooo freaking gorgeous!!! :) She has one sister Monica and two brothers Ammon and Sam! She is the 2nd oldest, (Monica is older). She loves to sing and is really good! She was in choir throughout her life. She sings alto, which is crazy because I sang alto too! :) She is 5 feet tall! I love that! She isn't short, she's fun sized! She loves music, the color purple, Dora the Explorer, Wild Cherry Pepsi, the Boston Red Sox (dont know why?), Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream, Shopping, shoes, jewelry, fun dresses, the Beatles, Dashboard, and ME! :)

Leah and I always have a fun time with each other! Last year when American Idol came on, we would watch it together throughout the whole season! It was always so much fun! I remember one of the first few times hanging out with Leah, she always had like a million rings on her fingers and I noticed that all the time and always thought it was really funny! Now she only has like 2 or 3. Her and I have this sad, sick obsession with the Bumper Sticker application on Facebook! What it is, is like funny sayings or pictures that remind us of the other one, and of course we send it to the other person so it can be posted on their profile! Funny times! We always joke and kid around with each other, which makes things so much fun! ;)

"I sent in my diamond wedding band from my first marriage and got money the very next day!" Funniest commercial ever!!!! Its one of those send in your old jewlery and we will give you money scam type things, and one lady said that and Leah and I bust up laughing and now when that commercial comes on, I always laugh and think of Leah! I'm constantly laughing or pulling crazy faces whenever I'm with Leah! I can be myself, like my true self with her!

Leah has always been a great example of faith to me! She always is smiling and so optimistic about everything! She knows how to put a smile on my face and not just one of those fake ones, a real genuine smile! :) Her testimony is so strong and I love hearing it! She knows things that I cant even imagine! I love her so much and I am glad that I know her! I'm thankful to my Heavenly Father for placing Leah in my life! She has been nothing but a joy and blessing to me. I cant believe I had 19 years without Leah in my life! I love Leah and thats why she is my best friend!

Darkest I've Ever Been....

I have been wanting to cut and color my hair for the longest time. Like, when Brandon and I were dating I really wanted to color my hair but never did because he always told me he liked my hair the way it was... suck up! But for the last month or so I have really been thinking about it. So one day I decide that I am going to do it! My friend Lauren from work always has her hair cute and colored nice and I loved the color of her hair, so I asked if she could do my hair the same color as hers and cut it a little too! She said yes. I was so stoked because I knew it was going to look amazing! I get to her house Sunday night and she is ready to work on me. Right when I get there she asked me if I was really sure about the color. That really made me smile because at first I didnt realize how drastic it was going to be. I said it was fine. So we are talking and she is coloring and she said she had different colors. I said she should put purple in my hair, so she did. There is a small strand of purple, from these pics you wont be able to tell but if you see me in person you can! Its on the left side, kinda underneath! :) Lauren styled my hair when I was done and then I looked at it and was sooo shocked! I couldnt believe how dark it was but I love it! I think it makes me look older and smarter! Thanks to my roomie Michelle for taking the pic of the back of my head! :)
Soooo happy my hair is dark and cute!!!

I love my new hair! Ccchanges!!! :)

4 Months.....

I remember the good times, like they were yesterday!
But all of those memories are fading slowly away.

4 months ago he broke my heart in two.
Now I'm left with nothing but being oh so blue.

I loved him more than words can say.
I still think about him everyday.

The feelings I have are still so strong.
Sometimes I know we belong.

Together in heart and mind.
One love in which you will find.

I still feel the pain and all the hurt.
I still wear his shorts and shirt.

I want my best friend back forever to stay.
Never do I want him to leave or go away.

I love him still.
Probably always will.

But it's time to move on with my life.
Prepare myself to be someone else's wife.

Everyday I wake up and be the best me I can.
Until that one day I marry "my man".

That one guy who can make all my dreams come true.
And never make me feel angry, sad, or blue.

Someone who is not only my love, but my best friend.
Always and forever, today, tomorrow, and until the end.